All She Wants To Do Is Dance.

Previously, I have written about the wonderful boyfriend I had, most times in an attempt to convince myself that he was as wonderful as I wanted to see him through my rose-colored glasses.
Unfortunately, he and I both knew there were issues and instead of working through them, he decided to walk away.

At first, I didn't want to accept this, but now I have. There is no reason to waste time wanting to be with someone who doesn't want to be with you. And after finding out who he really is, I decided that I definitely didn't see a future with that person. Definitely a Jekyll and Hyde situation...that I'm all too familiar with.

I know that we all have our faults, but I am sick and tired of being told that I "did nothing wrong", I treated you "better than anyone else has", or better than you "deserve". Ugh. I really hate that. At least give me something to work with.

Having had many people walk out of my life at inopportune times, it doesn't take me long to cut my losses and move on. I just get it all out of my system (as quickly as possible, maybe 2-3 days) and then start living life again. I know it sounds so callous, but why would I ever spend more time on someone who didn't care enough about me to prove otherwise. So...this just ends one chapter....to begin another.

Let me bring you up to speed. I was in the company of a great guy, who was sharing great wine and the only time I though of my ex was when I was spilling the details of the break-up that this new man wanted to know about. Otherwise, I was in the moment, where I should be. He had previously asked me to accompany him for drinks, but it was the day my ex and I split...now a week ago. So I was granted a "rain-check." This amazing man...says he has already fallen for me.

And being the cynic I am, I have more than once questioned this. So last night, I asked, "Why me?" And he gave me plenty of reasons...things I thought no one knew...or paid attention to...or remembered. He also stated that he though I was "silly for not seeing why every other guy isn't...if indeed they aren't."

In the past, he's taken me out and cooked for me...like some of the others. But what gets me is that he's serenaded me with his beautiful voice and how he can really read what I'm saying with my eyes....even if I try to deny what I'm really thinking. I know it sounds so cliche', but I just feel different when I'm with him. He's the type of guy you wish you could meet...because he'll just sweep you off your feet in the blink of an eye...and you're totally helpless. The way he holds me makes me feel so safe and loved. I'm on cloud 9 when we're together. And he doesn't even know he makes me weak at the knees. But of course, I can't let him know this....right?

Thinking back on some of the relationships I've had...I remember only a few with whom I've slow danced. And every time I think about those dances, I smile and remember how much I loved those moments. It's nearly indescribable. But right now, all I want to do is dance...with him.